OC RP -Nav

 Let's say I never spent a 4th of July quite like I did with Dakota. I've never been around that many friends either. It was good to be in a group. Of course, I had to see my ex and her new guy, too. But I don't think Dakota noticed. After all, Mia and I are strangers now. Although her new boy is a classmate and well..I didn't say hello to him, either. I just kept running with it with Dakota. I smiled at everything she said and just kept talking. Of course, we didn't hold hands. And I dunno if she would want to. What if I'm not her type? 

I don't know. I'm in no hurry. If all we are are friends, that's a good thing, right?

There was a time I thought I might marry Mia. I don't know what got into me. There are so many obstacles that one doesn't even realise. Like my mother. And of course, trying to finish at the Uni to be in the medical program was suffocating. I know it was just a fantasy, thinking Mia would be the one. 

Yes, it was an exhausting time, but I was so smitten with Mia. Now I am sure she is glad I gave it up. I wasn't much better than Ezra. Yeah, it makes me smile when I see how Ezra follows Fiona around like a loyal pup. I was that way to Mia, too. 

Now I just take one day at a time. And these days, I don't have a whole lot of time to ponder, with the Complex and, of course, the rides at the carnival always needing me for something.

BTW, I hear the carnival will be going strong all the way into September. Usually, it goes on hiatus in August, but due to global warming and a surge in tourism, why not?

And I'm pleased I could help Dakota get that job. It looks like it's gonna happen. Of course, the director asked why I wasn't working there. I know I should, but I feel too busy as it is.

Still, it's good to have Dakota to talk to. I hope she'll like it at the assisted living place. And I hope we have more group outings too. Even if it's right here at the Complex

-Nav

OC RP - Fiona

 It's gonna get better. I swear I'm gonna be better. I have. Yeah, I know, not much of a mantra, but I know I worried Dakota. 

God knows, what she thinks of me now. Why! Why, oh why! Did I even tell her about Austin (squints eyes shut) I think that's his name. I don't know anymore. I don't know anything anymore. Yeah, that's the ticket. Keep telling myself this shit. I'll probably never see him anyway..so who cares. Right?

This past week has been endless. I made sure to use the alarm on my phone like Dakota said. She's got it all figured out. And I did pick up some yogurts from the Complex building, where people drop off free stuff they don't want anymore. It's not exactly a food pantry, but sort of. And that's helped. Personally, I wonder if Dakota dropped off the yogurt. [I should not be worried about this shit..I know I sound like I  have a split personality or something..but really I don't. I swear.]

REMINDER: START A SWEAR JAR! [Do I have to do that? I really can't afford it.]

Anyway...the 4th was pretty sweet. Friends showed up. Dakota and Nav. Of course, Ezra, and we met these sisters along the way to the boardwalk, and we hung out. You know, talked about shit at the complex how those old Golden Girls keep asking us over, but we never go.

It was a great start to the evening. I ate junk food and watched Ezra try to wow me with his winning streak. Yeah, I just got the tokens. It added up. I got a big bottle of wine. Of course, I was very responsible. I made him carry it home. And it's in the fridge. I promised I would just keep it there. You know, see how long I can keep it without drinking it. [I saw something  like that in a K-drama, so I'm gonna try it.]

It was Ezra's keen idea since he's not old enough to legally drink.  Oh, the things he talks me into. I know he'd rather I'd just taken all those little stuffed animals, but that's not me. He should be happy that He didn't have to carry that jug of wine to the Ferris Wheel. I tried not to be bossy, but it didn't last long. 

I know I should be nicer. Kinder. He puts up with a lot of shit with me, but I just don't want us to get too close. I just know some nerdy girl has her eye on him, and I would hate for him to miss out on that. I think, anyway. Maybe.

But he was so Ezra. Now that I think about it, maybe he's been talking to Dakota. The two of them would never just hang out. Together. Right?

It would have been the perfect night, but then my mom called when I got home. She told me about my cousin Cody. She said he died of an overdose. I have not seen him since..oh God.. so many Christmases ago at my grandparents. I was so sad to hear about him. I was so worried he'd gotten washed away in one of those flooded rivers in Texas because he lived in Kerrville. So, yeah, I wasn't myself, and I know Ezra was afraid that I would be alone with the wine.

I didn't know Cody well. And now that my parents are split up because mom stopped taking her bipolar meds, things aren't like they used to be.

I know, I could be living with my Dad right now, but he needs to be alone, and I'm afraid he wants me on meds, too.

I don't even know what Cody's addiction was, or even where it happened.  Maybe I shouldn't know. 

So..so Ezra spent the night. This meant, squeezing together so we could both watch JAWS I and II on my laptop. Yeah, maybe not the best idea.

-Fiona

It's a mix! The Poets

 

(4) The Poets - That`s The Way It`s Got To Be - YouTube

Baby, Don't You Do It

In Your Tower

The Poets I'll Keep My Pride.wmv

Call Again

The Poets - There Are Some

THE POETS 'SOMEONE'

I'll Come Home

OC RP - Dakota

 Sometimes, I wonder about myself. I might not be any help to anyone, and still I try. I don't even have siblings, yet I find myself in Big Sister mode when it comes to Fiona.

Yes, texting Ezra was not a good idea. It didn't help any that I had to get his number from Nav which meant, talking Nav into going to the Fireworks with me at the boardwalk on the 4th of July. 

And then the endless texting with Ezra. What did I get myself into? I didn't want to tell him everything about Fiona. I just said, maybe she wasn't ready to be on her own.

Bad mistake..bad..bad mistake.

I kept telling him to worry about himself, after all his pondering, "What do you mean?" questions.

In the end, I just said, "We'll do more things together." What else could I say?

I applied to the Assisted Living Place, and I used Nav as a reference, which helped a lot. I am thankful for knowing him. And finally, oh finally, I got to meet Alex. Who is amazing with cars. And Alex didn't charge me an arm and a leg. 

It was good to meet Alex, who was very informative about taking care of a car. 

Finally, when the 4th rolled around, we all met up for hot dogs on the crowded boardwalk. Thankfully, I only ate one, because a second one would have made me throw up. I couldn't deal with the cotton candy and other treats like Fiona. 

After a couple of games at the different booths and arcades, we settled down to pair up. Nav and I went together on the Ferris Wheel (our final ride). Before that, it was the bumper cars and the Tilt-a-Twirl. Honestly, I hadn't imagined this much fun on the 4th. Thank God for a sea breeze, or it might have been a different night.

Thankfully, there was laughter and fun, and it was great not being under any influence, except the night and the beautiful fireworks.

-Dakota