Do you think you two are bad for each other?
RACHEL: I don't want it to be that way. I know..OK..I am attracted to him. I don't care about status or whatever. I just know..he's the one I wanted. The first time I saw him I was so happy. And he lived right across the hall from me. (She smiles brightly, happily, but then she is a little sad as she thinks to say more of him.) But, maybe..maybe you can't count on first instincts. (she looks a little sad) I might not be smart at all. Probably not. He probably knows this. (she sighs) I have a big mouth, I drink too much, I want too much. I know I'm average. There really isn't anything special about me..and yet come rain or high water I know I'll be there for Jory. I know he needs someone. (she clears her throat) I guess...I'm that someone. JORY: Well, there is a lot of things she's..she's shown me. I mean..about relationships. About being a couple. (he looks away) She shouldn't put herself down. I..know..well, we both have excess baggage. (He tries to smile, but he can't) I don't like to think of myself as broken. I mean, really (he cracks up) rich parents couldn't even fix me. (He's even lipped) I dunno, I just always thought it would be better if you know, I went away and didn't bother them anymore. My adopted mom was always worried about me, but the more she worried I felt pushed away. (he has tears in her eyes) But I don't want to blame her. (but he can't help to be teary-eyed) I think..I think she thought if ...if I was around I would save her marriage. And yeah, he stayed around, pushing me to be the best at sports and always something I had to be doing. I never really got to enjoy, anything. And then the expectations of me accomplishing what they wanted..(he shakes his head) Life is short..I just wanted to find the real me and well, my sister too. (he tries to smile, but he can't help but weep) I thought I had things figured out. It's just..it's just feelings get in the way. People I know, doing..doing things...I just can't help but get emotional about it. (he sniffs back tears) I guess I wasn't thinking that far ahead.
I wish Rachel thought more of herself!
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ReplyDeleteWow. I continue to be blown away by these interviews; they're always so introspective and beautifully written, and this one is no exception. I like that Rachel isn't interested in status and that she's Jory's someone. And Jory's story is so sad. I hate that he had to excel at stuff instead of enjoying his childhood and that he thinks he could've saved his mom's marriage.
ReplyDeleteThanks for your Golden Girls comments. I love that you used to imagine Sophia as president; what a wild world that would be!
And thank you, thank you, thank you for including my charm bracelet in your collage! As always, I'm honored. :)
Jory siempre me agradado y mas ahora que con osco su historia. Te mando un beso
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