OC RP - Fiona

It seems Dakota thinks Matty is all wrong for me. I dunno what made her my big sister? I don't get it?

OK, so um..thinks are hot with Matty. So much better than I even imagined. He's very...um...

Let's say my dry spell is over.

So maybe Dakota is upset with me over the wine thing. (winces hard, but practically winks with a smile that won't stop) I just wanted to put that wine to good use.

I mean, we were rocking in that trailer. He put on the Best of Boney M. And well, he's crazy good with his moves. (Sigh) So one thing led to another. And you know, we got a good rhythm going.

So yeah, I could dance with that fool all night. It felt like the cops might bust in any minute, but then I realized it was the sirens on the CD. 

God, he was killing it. I just don't know, drinking a bottle of red wine might not have been the perfect idea. Just when things were gonna happen and I was practically in the raw, I had to go throw up.

I do wonder if somebody is watching out for me. Maybe. But it would have been so good. I just know it.

"You shouldn't drink!" Dakota laid down the law. All this shit about THINKING IT THROUGH. I want to listen, I do. I try. Really, I do, but..

God, if I have a chance to do it all over again with Matty, I'd do in a New Jersey minute! But he hasn't called. Does he hate me now? 

I'm afraid to say too much to Dakota because she'll take it that I'm needy, you know. I don't want that. I don't.

God, she doesn't come around like she used to. I feel a little sad about that. Or am I just sad over Matty?

And Ezra? Where in the hell is Ezra? I thought he'd be around. You know, to check up on me or something.  I don't get it. I just don't. I kind of miss him, you know. Only, I miss Matty more. Damn him!